Have you ever had a moment when something in your life seemed to come full circle? An event occurs that reminds you of a previous point in your life? Something helps you to take a moment to reflect on your journey between that previous point and now? I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. Everything that happens to us is by divine intervention, both the good and bad. The universe wants only good for us, but the bad comes as an opportunity for growth and also by our own actions, due to free will.
All in all, I believe that there is a path that we are destined to take. We are all put here for a reason, our ultimate life, and we are meant to leave the earth better when we depart. We are intended to share our gifts and talents with the world, in order to make it a better place. Our path becomes harder to find through all of the challenges we must overcome. We are taught to fear change and taking risks by our parents, although well meaning. Our society often mocks and picks apart those that try to follow their own path. It can sometimes seem impossible to find our purpose, but that is part of the journey of life.
Things come full circle in our lives to show us our progress. If we are able to pay attention, these occurrences will often happen just as we are feeling discouraged or questioning a recent risk we have taken. Or maybe we have taken a completely wrong turn and it is a sign to get back on our paths. An instance of coming full circle that occurred in my life happened this weekend. I had the opportunity to see one of my favorite artists, The Tallest Man on Earth, in concert. I had wanted to see him live for years and had actually planned a trip to see him in another state a few months ago, but was unable to make it to the show. When I saw that he would be in my city, I knew that I had to get a ticket.
It was such an incredible experience for me. One of his songs, Love is All, in particular is very special to me. His album The Wild Hunt and that song really saved me in one of the darkest times of my life. It was during that time I was struggling to make sense of my world. I didn’t know where I should go next and became increasingly depressed and worried that I had made a wrong turn along the way. I felt so alone and like I couldn’t really confide in anyone. Amongst all of this, my grandmother died.
This was the grandmother that I had a very serious argument with a few months prior. I was very frustrated and upset with her and struggled to just forgive and let it go, something that is not typical for me. For my birthday she sent me a beautiful ring and a note saying that she loved me. I had intentions to call her and make up, but stuck in my stubborn nature and anxious ways, I put it off. Two weeks after my birthday, she passed away unexpectedly. The amount of guilt and sadness I felt after hearing this news was almost too much to bear. How could I let something so silly keep me from enjoying a relationship with my grandmother, how could I let her pass without telling her one last time how much she meant to me?
I remember driving with my family around that Mississippi town; a place that was such a cheerful part of my childhood. We drove down the beach, heading to have dinner. I played Love is All on repeat through my headphones, hoping no one could see my tears in the darkness of the car. I made a silent promise to myself that I would not allow my anxiety to hold me back anymore. I wouldn’t allow myself to hide away from both people and opportunities. I would do my best to forgive and show love every day, because life is short and impermanent. It was time to forgive myself. Two months later, I found myself moving into my new apartment with complete strangers in Richmond and embarking on my new journey.
Last night, while listening to Kristian belt out Love is All, I stood there and sang along. I felt such emotion; I had to hold back tears. I was here and I had made it. I am walking proudly on my path. I have embraced so many things since that time over two years ago. The progress I have made towards connecting to both myself and the world is incredible. I had finally forgiven myself. I still stumble and occasionally stray from my path, but I have come so far and that is reason enough to keep going. In that moment felt such joy and love. I knew immediately that I am heading in the right direction.
This morning, I let our dog out to the backyard. As I went to retrieve her a few minutes later; something laying on our welcome mat caught my eye. There was a beautiful lone feather sitting right in the middle of our mat. I looked around and saw no birds or signs of other feathers. This struck me as odd because I rarely see birds in our backyard, due to my rather rambunctious pit bull. This feather had also appeared in the few minutes that I had retreated back inside. As I have said before, there are no coincidences. I immediately looked up the meaning of feathers and smiled to myself as I read the symbolism.
Finding a feather is often associated with angels. It takes on different meanings in different cultures, but all agree that it is often a sign that our angels are near and watching over us. It is also a sign of the connection between man and God. In Native American culture, the hawk feather symbolizes strength, guardianship and farsightedness. I took this as a sign that I am on the right path. I felt incredible joy and gratitude for everything in my life. I am so thankful for all I have and the path I took to get here. This world is truly a miraculous place when we take a moment to appreciate the magic of it all.
If you find that something in your life is coming full circle, take a moment to reflect on your journey. What changes have you made? How have you grown? Is there something your past is trying to communicate with you? This could simply be a sign to stop and celebrate all we have accomplished. Often it can be the sign of the completion of one cycle in our lives and the beginning of another. Even if we are not completely where we want to be at this moment, we mustn’t forget to enjoy the ride and appreciate how far we have come.
Thank you for reading, I will see you soon.