[Above is a picture of me after I was betrayed by my sandals and thrown into the ocean. Moment captured by: A Photography Journal]
If you keep up with my posts you know that my schedule is typically a blog post on Monday and a YouTube video on Thursday, give or take a day. Last week, however, I did not post a blog or video. I started my week in the usual way, by Monday I had chosen my topic for the week and even filmed my video for Thursday, but when I sat down at the computer, my fingers just didn't move. A small voice told me to step away from the computer, make a cup of tea, and just sit for a while. I found myself thinking about all the projects I've taken on in the past month.
As my dreams and desired life have became clear to me, I crave movement in that direction. I have an unquenchable thirst for soaking up as much information as I can then putting that into action towards my goals. This is great. I'm not complaining at all. The pure joy, excitement, and lust for life that have grown in me over the past year revealed the true me to myself and made life so much sweeter. This is what life is all about and I am so grateful to make that girl with her head in the clouds dreaming of one day being a writer proud. My depression is gone, my anxiety that once controlled my every move reduced to just an occasional squirm in my stomach. I'm finally doing it, but with all that energy new problems arise.
Real true growth and movement in life always present new challenges. Life will never be comfortable. I was not comfortable back when I just went through the motions in life, stuck in my bubble. I was miserable and felt stuck in my mediocre life. Now that I'm on the right path, new, different challenges await. Although I am stronger now, I am not unbreakable. Although life is infinitely better that it was, there is still so much work that must be done.
Over the last month I have worked harder than I ever have in my life. It seems like between blogging, filming, editing, coaching, working my side job and all the obligations in my personal life in between, I barely remembered to eat. I was working myself to the point of exhaustion. My body finally put its foot when and I got sick. I suddenly realized that in the rush to get everything done, I had not been taking care of myself.
Really going for it in life takes a lot of practice and discipline. I had to take a few days to think, journey within, and finally made a decision. By trying to focus on 10 different projects, I wasn't doing any of them to the best of my ability. We cannot be great at anything if we spend all of our time trying to be good at everything.
The moral of this story is just that I'm human and that's okay. It is easy to get swept up in all the excitement and wish to do everything that we can forget to stop and take the occasional breath. If you are feeling overwhelmed in life, try to take a few hours or even a day to consider what is most important to you and to clear out the unnecessary clutter in that path. It's okay to need a break or day off sometimes. We are all human.
Have a beautiful week. Sending you light and love!