I'm finally back. I've been away on a brief hiatus and I wish I had a better excuse for myself. Truthfully, I was suffering from a severe case of Impostor's syndrome. I felt like maybe I was just kidding myself with this whole writing thing. Maybe it would be better for everyone if I stopped shining my light and headed back into isolation. It took a serious slap in the face to snap out of it.
My parents came to visit me this weekend. I always love to have them come up. Being around my family always has a way of making me feel warm and supported. During their visit we all had our tarot cards read. As soon we I met my psychic it was as if my dark cloud was lifted. Her positive energy as well as her message brought me back into my connection with the universe. It was as if she was speaking from my spirit guides directly to my soul.
Her message was simple, if it brings me joy, it is defintely meant for me. It's something I've always known, but it is easy to allow my ego and fear to take hold, especially during challenging times. She also reminded me that by dwelling on negative thoughts, this was the energy I was emitting to the universe. This was definitely not new information, but it finally clicked and I was free.
I believe that a strong, loving energy connects everything in this world and beyond. This energy is constantly trying to communicate with us if we are able to tune into the right frequency. Signs from the universe can come in many forms including a word overhead, a conversation, a random thought, or commonly a visit from an animal friend.
I've been visited quite often in the past month or so by hawks and more recently a robin. I spend most of my work week outside and on the trails around my city. Some of these days are spent walking around in awe of the beauty around me. Other days are spent on my phone, anxious and disconnected. On my more disconnected days, I was by a hawk.
I remember the first time this happened. The hawk swooped down overhead, causing me to look up from my phone in shock. I watched her mighty shadow on the trail then glide away. As quickly as she made her presence known, she was gone. I knew immediately that this bird had been sent to me. I acknowledged the energy, but soon found myself once disconnected and distracted by my own fears. The spirits did not give up on me, my hawk friend has visited me a handful of times, each time hoping to snap me out of my negative daze.
It wasn't until today that I decided to research what message my hawk visitor attempted to bring to me. This website explains:
"Many of the messages this bird brings you are about freeing yourself of thoughts and beliefs that are limiting your ability to soar above your life and gain a greater perspective. It is this ability to soar high above to catch a glimpse of the bigger picture that will allow you to survive and flourish."
Wow. The same message that brought relief during my reading this weekend was sent to me a handful of times over the past month or so. It's as if the universe knew that it had to find another, more clear, way to communicate the message. Well, the message was finally received with much gratitude.
I had another run in with a bird last week. This one was much less subtle in her approach. I was washing my hands at the sink when I heard a bang on the window beside my head. Heart pounding, I looked over to find a frantic robin. Time stood still as we looked each other in the eye. Then, as if she mission was complete, she flew over to the nearby tree and began to sing a song.
The same website gives this explanation:
"This creature will teach how to incorporate new beginnings with faith and trust in the process. It is time to believe in yourself and use the inspiration that is given."
Fair enough. It's time to believe in myself and have some faith in the process. Not new information, but important nonetheless. The universe has my back and it's time to get out of my own head.
The lesson in this post is one of two things. The first, if you're feeling like an impostor or like maybe you're not good enough to live your dreams, STOP. If it brings you joy, it most certainly IS MEANT for you. Get out of your own way and walk in your purpose. Don't be afraid to let your light shine unapologetically.
The second lesson I hope to convey is to BE OPEN. Be open to the messages of love and support that we are surrounded by each day. Look up and take it in every once and a while, you never know what you may be missing.
See you next week!