It's very easy for me to take small breaks from my website, which usually turn into longer breaks. There is nothing I love more than pouring my heart into a post and sharing it out into the world. There is also nothing that brings me more anxiety. Like many out there, I have a tendency to make myself small. Being vulnerable and open with the world brings about the best things in life, but also can bring pain and heartache in the face of rejection.
I've spent the last three weeks moving. Life was chaotic and I was without internet for a few days. This then turned into an excuse I kept going for a little longer than necessary. Alas, I shook myself from the spell and here I am.
We decided to move from our cosy, but much to big for us three bedroom home in a cute neighborhood on the outskirts of the city to a small one bedroom city apartment. I was reluctant when moving to that house, I knew I would miss being in the middle of the city, but the neighborhood was long adored by my partner, so I agreed. With more house, however, we quickly accumulated more and more crap until it soon became more of an anchor than a home.
I never want, especially pre-children, to be anchored to a specific place by my possessions. Sure, I want a home, but I'm not ready to grow roots just yet. I want to flow in the wind like a daffodil seed, wherever life wants to take me. I don't want to feel obligated to stay in one place because I have too much stuff to leave it behind. I want to leave at any moment's notice with nothing but my partner and pup if opportunity should call. And I certainly don't want a house full of stuff and plus a storage unit full of more stuff to tie me down. It was time for a purge.
We began the process of emptying out our home. The decision was made that we would only bring family heirlooms, clothing that we couldn't bring ourselves to give away, and a few small possessions that we absolutely love. Everything else was given away, donated, or sold. It was a long and exhausting process, but brought warmth in return. It was actually really fun to see our old things go to homes that would love them again.
We were then left to scrub our former home spotless. As my mother had taught me, and was once mentioned by a psychic during a tarot card reading, it is very important to leave a home clean when you leave. Leave everything you touch in this world better than how you found it, if possible. Three days of backbreaking work and we were finally done. Our landlord's friend even gave us a hug for making everything so easy on our way out.
We have spent the last two weeks filling up our new space. We wanted to take things slow with bringing in new possessions. "It has to be perfect," we agreed. We measured every square inch and planned every piece. It was time and energy sucking work, but now we have a small space that we absolutely adore. Not enough to tie us here, mind you, but we feel much lighter and ready to take on the world.
I'm now writing you from our 9th story apartment as noises from the city below loft into the apartment through the open window. I'm hoping this new adventure will bring new energy, lessons, and more beautiful memories into our lives. It certainly feels like it already has. My creative energy is flowing freely again and I have a lot of new ideas for the site. Yay!
Is there anything in your life acting as an unwanted anchor? Is there anything that you could trash, recycle, or donate to bring in new energy? Often our unwanted possessions can find new homes and be loved again if we are willing to let them go.
The drastic measures I went through are definitely not necessary for cleansing, but spring is a wonderful time to clean out your home. If you don't love it, use it, or need it, consider donating it to a local thrift store or charity. By clearing out and cleaning our dwellings, we invite some warmth and lightness to replace the stale energy. Maybe you could even find some room for a few new outfits that make you feel alive, just saying.
Thank you for tuning in this week! I will see you again soon. Sending love and fresh energy to you this week.